wisdom is a private confession of truth

I have been definitely missing Singapore. I can barely imagine how that small-boring country has successfully let me down in depression. no returning direction. and all i need to do is waiting for the coming of 29th June and it's like 3 weeks more to go. And in devastation, i have to work things out in a more serious and intentional way or else i waste my time unutterly useful. Lord, please give me wisdom, i truly need it, to lead my way, to not grumbling and muttering and stop my laziness cycle, to properly fill my time with quality things, to eat enough food (read:enough means i am in total craziness about eating too much food during this freaking holiday), to have a good interpretation towards people around, and to be more appreciative upon the magical thing called love, and the ultimate reason I DESPERATELY NEED WISDOM IS to realize: what's not to love of being me. :)