toobad:/

it's a double depression


1. CGPA dropped
2. Unsuccessful hall application due to the 'nonsense' 17 cut-off points


Teach me Lord to be thankful, it's hard though :(

IF ONLY I COULD ESCAPE

27th May,2010, would be a historic date for people, i guess. Tonight, people would sit down and watch out for their GPAs to come out. DUH!!! adding the internet connection problem which is super slow here (compared to NTU), creating the sensation of unexplained fear. It's been the second time i again feel my heart beat so fast, and my body freezing to death. I always hate this feeling, if only i could escape. Yea yea, no offense, this is life, specifically life at NTU.

I was wondering, well, erm, we got to work super hard just to pass the admission, and really, it's a one life experience, it's crazy. Yes, no doubt. Again, we got to fast adjust to a new environment, with a new system, which sometimes is overwhelming. Not enough, we are to actively participate through the ECA life to get a room for the next acad year, AND NOW THE NEW CUTOFF POINT IS 17, IT'S NONSENSE. I can't truly believe, i mean SAO should inform the new cutoff point at every start of new odd semester, it's unfair they keep it a secret for them like now. It's simply a matter of room, i mean, puhlease!!!, we just need that to rest and everything, man!!! No wonder people there were very kiasu.
Well, okay, next point, like this holiday period, hmm LONG HOLIDAY, i have to crouch and devastated and scared and yea i was like dumb, OH NO its getting nearer to 11 here... and horribly, tomorrow is the official declaration of successful(un) hall application. waw, how historical 27th may is.

If they said, life is hard at Singapore, i will extremely totally highly terribly dreadfully madly exceedingly AGREE. Nvm, at least i can still feel this hard feeling haha, wondering about people who find this very relaxing, yea you know what i mean.

THESE THINGS just make me miss my high school life even more, and the people!!! GET BACK SOON GUYS. Things were just incredibly awesome years ago. However, it's again life, we gotta run and stop and run and stop and it's a never ending line, you just can't go back.

GUYS JUST WISH ME LUCK for everything today and the day after. Now i lost my energy to continue writing  :( :( :( :( :(

ignore.

I was running. I stopped. I looked back. Recalling, I was knocked down. I fell. I cried. I'm lost.

It's past. No. Yes.

You gotta wake up. You gotta move on. Life is beautiful, they said, don't you believe it?

I should feel content. I must. It's been a long time since i found myself back. Sometimes i felt lost and not found, i felt nothing but empty, i felt like running but not moving, i felt like believing but unrelieved.

It's a beautiful paradise, in front of me, and i will never close my eyes again. Don't judge me. Don't torture me. It's just a beginning. I promise to create a good ending.

I swear!!!

SWEET SOCKS

'IN CASE YOU GET COLD FEET'
'BY YOUR SIDE EVERY STEP OF THE WAY'
'I'M SO HAPPY YOU WALKED INTO MY LIFE'
they're sweet, aren't they?

I found this photo, categorized under "Gift for husband". hahaha.
But really, i won't wear these socks, it's just too sweet to be hiden right inside your shoes, unless you don't mind using socks and wearing sandals, maybe just to show off to people on how sweet your partner is.

THERE'S ALWAYS A FIRST BEFORE...

Well, it's never too late, people said. During my examination period at NTU, i and some friends went through thousands of wedding blogs, and found them super awesome, erm, yea, kinda freak. But, nope, we just fall in love with those wedding projects and dreamt about setting up a small business: wedding organizer, later after we all got married *giggle*.

And i thought blogging could help me improving my suck english. I hope. I just realize that my one-year-life in Singapore didn't bring my english to be better. THUS, I added this improving english thing into my hols-to-do list, yeay!!! I am working on it now. I mean, really.

THIS IS MY FIRST POST, HERE, AT MY OWN BLOG :')